1) I have to be a group leader.
There is nothing bad about this, but the fact that this is a korean retreat...and I'm more confident about my english than korean. As a group leader, you have to bring the group closer together and not make things awkward. I am SO SHY when I'm put into a group of strangers. How do I make everyone love each other and stuff? And as a group leader, I have to be a LEADER, as in I should be a role model to the other kids. Show them the love I have for God and stuff. I don't know if I can do that.
oh and I look like a grade 9. All the group members are going to be like "you're a leader? HAHAHAHA"
2) I love being at Kosta. I love how I can really connect with God there. How I really want to feel his presence. What ends up happening throughout the year is "oh, don't worry. I have Kosta to get closer with Him again." I use Kosta way of getting out of things. "oh I'll just be better and pray harder at Kosta." Also when I go to other retreats I have such high expectations for them because of Kosta. It's kinda hard to explain :S
I hate that feeling when you're back into the real world. You get so emotionally tired... You're on fire with God's love but as time passes, that starts to burn out. What you're left out is a lonely, scared Christie. But I guess if I go this year, I have to find a way to keep that fire for the rest of my life...which...is HARD. I
My pastor was telling us that we don't HAVE to go...but...I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO :'(
WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
well here is the promo video for it:
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