CN Tower Climb

On Saturday October 23rd, 2010 me and a bunch of my friends participated in the 2010 CN Tower climb for United Way. I got $40 worth of donations from people from school. While asking people for money, I learned some things. Before when people asked me for donations, I would usually say, "Oh, I don't have money," "I already donated," or "Laterrrrr." All of these were lies. Now that I was the person asking for money, I realized what kind of a jerk I was. People who are not fortunate enough like me are relying for people like me to help them...but I'm too selfish to donate $1? One thing that pissed me off was when people were throwing the money at me, especially pennies. Excuse me, I'm not a hobo and I have a hand where you can put the money in. Anyways, I got enough change to get the money.

At first, I decided to sign up for the climb because a friend was begging me to. I really didn't want to go. I was already having lack of sleep, and waking up at 6 on a saturday to go climb some stupid tower? No thanks. I actually thought that it wasn't going to be so hard...just a couple of stairs. I was wrong. Very wrong. There were 144 flights of stairs. Originally I thought there was only 62. By the time me and my friend got to the 62, we asked someone, "How many flights are there?":

"There are 144."

That actually shattered our motivation of climbing. Eventually we got up and didn't die.

I think that the climb can reflect to our life. It can relate to how we try to achieve our goals:

1. First we go into it knowing the problems we would face:

• I knew I was going to die while going up the stairs. I'm so unfit that I have trouble going up to the 3rd floor at church.

2. With knowing the problems we are going to face, we either start, or give up:

• I could've said no to the climb, but I did it anyway.

3. We face challenges:

• breathing problems, smelly Indian man in front of us, leg pain, friends yelling at us to come up faster.

4. We need help along the way:

• my friend beside me was having more trouble than I thought. She looked like she was going to faint. I guess we all need a little motivation from other people that we can do it.
• we need that reminder that "we're almost there" "one more!!" kind of comments.

5. We keep on going, or give up:

• When I heard that there were 144 flights on the 62nd flight, I actually wanted to give up. We weren't even half way there. What other choice did we have? It was either up, or down.

6. We achieve our goal:

• With the many problems and challenges we go through, it is more rewarding at the end. I felt so great that I climbed the CN tower. I could check off the "climb CN tower" on my bucket list.

It was pretty fun to tell the truth. There were a variety of people who participated from 10 year olds to an old grandpa (he was so cute). If I was asked next year to do it though, I'll have to think about that. :)

Wannna start over.

Don't you sometimes wish that you could move to somewhere? A place where no one knows you or your past. A place where you can be whoever you wanna be and no one will think you're acting yourself? Make new friends, meet new teachers, and start over. Erase everything.

I wanna move to a new school...and my parents said I can if i really wanted to. I've been thinking what it would be like to be at a new school. It would be weird at first trying to make new friends but I think I'll be okay...

I've been feeling really down lately with who my real friends are these days. I think I'll write what I wanna say to some people:

1. We've been best friends for so long, but for the past 2-3 years, I feel like you haven't been respecting me. Whenever we're just by ourselves, you're the besttest friend but whenever there are other people around, you talk to me as if you hate me, or I am the biggest loser you know. It feels like you don't wanna be friends with me anymore. You really don't know what i've done for you during the past 3 years of high school, and you don't appreciate that. I always knew you were going to hang out with a different group of people ever since high school started, but I think you've been ignoring way too much these days. I try talking to you on msn, but I get no reply. I try, but it seeems like you're trying to make a distance between us. If you just don't wanna be friends with me, just tell me cause I think you're hurting me more by doing this.

2. So before high school started, we were all friends. But since last year, all of you guys started hanging out together excluding me. Now you guys are the best of friends, and I'm the loser that eats in the cafeteria doing my homework by myself. You guys always go to the movies together, while I stay home. During a party, you guys are all huddled up doing whatever.... thanks....

3. I've been pissed at you this past week because of the way you've been talking to me. You say you wanna eat lunch with me, but I see you somewhere else. It feels like I need to book an appointment with you to talk to you. When I told you of a problem you said "oh, sorry it was because of me" ...yeah thankss...

ugh, I am disliking my life at the moment.

I Want a Programmer

I want a programmer to replace me during class so I can go for an ice capp break.

I want a programmer to do my test tomorrow in class while I sleep

I want a programmer to do my homework and teach me.

I want a programmer to solve the billion problems I have.

I want a programmer to pass this class.

The closest thing I have is Mr.A

....I'm going to fail.....

I want a Wife

I want a wife that will clean my room.

I want a wife that will do my homework for me.

I want a wife that will take my socks off for me after I come home from school.

I want a wife that will dry my hair and wash my face.

I want a wife that will pick up my dog's poo while I'm eating dinner.

I want a wife that will do and fold my laundry.

I want a wife that will drive me to anywhere I want.

I want a wife that will buy me clothes and food.

I want a wife that will give me an allowance.

I want a wife that will do my nails.

I want a wife that will make my bed.

I want a wife that will make me a giant dinner every day.

I want a wife that will talk to me when I'm sad.

but I can't have a wife.

Stress

Ever since school started, I've noticed that I haven't gotten the 8 hours of sleep I need everyday. I usually get told by my peers that I look really tired. I usually end up falling asleep in 1-2 classes everyday which I never used to do before. It feels like I've stayed awake all this time, and got no sleep.

I learned that I have the worst time management. I know I should improve but it's really hard when you've had this crappy time management skills for the past 4-5 years. This year, with 3 extra classes after school, it has really messed up my work times. On mondays, wednesdays and thursdays, my classes start at 6:45pm and end at 8:45. After school, I would usually take the bus and subway which takes at least an hour. When I get there, I would do my Essel (the place I go to) homework. When I get home, it's already 9:30pm. When I eat dinner it's 10pm. You get my point?

Stress is something everyone learns to cope with, but seriously, I can't get used to it. I learned that if you procrastinate in the beginning of the year, it's pretty hard to get out of it unless you don't have any assignments for 2-3 weeks. Even now I'm procrastinating by not doing my homework or studying for my test tomorrow by blogging. sigh.

Anyways, I seem to cram my studying the morning of. I set my alarm at 6:30 am or 7:00am but I usually wake up and say "uh, I already know this...!" or "I can study during lunch" and fall back asleep. Pretty good studying skills eh?

When I recently went to university fair last week, they told me in order to do anything involving life science it would take at least 8 years. DAMN.... I learned that I really have to change my lifestyle in order to achieve what I want to be. I want to help people and in order to do that, I have to study.

Technology has basically ruined my studying life. Facebook is where my hand naturally types without me even noticing. When I get a note from my hotmail "You have received a new email from facebook!" it makes me so curious of what the new notification is. Basically it has become a game of, "one second of math homework then an hour of facebook." Before my parents would come down and yelling at me to get off the computer and go to bed. Now my parents have given up and they usually go to their room without checking on me. I guess they expect me to take care of myself now that I'm old enough. Secretly, I wished that they were those stricter parents that turned off my computer at 8pm or had those parental internet blocks.

I guess in order to help me stop procrastinating, I should set some rules for myself? I know I'm going to break them, but lets just give them a try.

1) deactivate facebook.

2) basically don't use the internet.

HAHA (: