Comparing Myself?

(my blog titles are getting so stupid these days)

Do you know what I have to stop doing?

Comparing my weaknesses to someone's strengths.

Comparing myself with others are not going to do anything except for bring me down.

If I want to make myself feel better, I have to change myself instead of always complaining, and stick with my words.

I keep on saying "I'm going to go running in the morning to get fit again" but it has never happened. I'm going to start trying, but I know I'm going to fail, but it's always good to give it a try.

The book One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest has a good example. Even though the main character knows he will not win the bet, he still does to teach his friends that giving it a try matters. So I'll still try to run, but me in the morning at 7 o'clock, is not a beautiful situation :)

My Guilty Pleasures (this sounds sexual)

1) icecream

• green tea, strawberry, chocolate, vanilla, mocha, YUM YUM
• not mango though, cause I hate mangos (:

2) Oprah Winfrey show

• Gah, I can't believe her show is over now :( I've been watching her since grade 5
• what do I watch now when I get home? :(

3) "We Got Married" korean show

• this is a show were two celebrities are in a fake marriage but it's actually so cute
• but at the end of every episode you're sitting there hugging your pillow saying "I'm going to die alone. FOREVER ALONE!"

4) NAPS

• oh gosh, how I love them
• well they are not even considered naps because my naps are longer than the amount of sleep I actually get at night.

5) McDonalds Ice coffee

• $1.05 buys me happiness. Oh the large cup filled with the fattening vanilla iced coffee that makes you go to the washroom every hour or so

(This post just turned into things I like, not guilty pleasures. (: )

I'll write more later, I think I'm going to sleep :)

Appearance Vs Personality

We always say that appearance doesn't matter as much as personality but does it? It's what grabs our attention right? We're on facebook, and OH LOOK! Someone really really cute commented on your friend's picture. Let's click that. Or you're walking down the hallway and BAM, there's that cute boy or girl. Face it (get it? face? HAHA), appearance is an important key in meeting someone. It leaves us an impression of them. Would you rather think about a nice clean shaven good smelling man, or a homeless man that smells like fart? Thought so :)

But we must look beyond the appearance and get to know the person. What they like. What their hobbies are. I heard some cheesy quote before, I think it was "Appearance grabs your attention but personality is what grabs your heart." And it's true. (: There will always be good looking, 6-pack abs men out there, but there will be only a handful of people that will fit with your personality. (:

Sigh, I want to continue this post but I'm slowly dying. So tired. Karen finish your DATA ISP D:

TEST CALMING TECHNIQUE? O.o

What I do right before a test: Pray to God to give me the wisdom to get a really high mark on the test. I know I can't always rely on him to give me the marks cause I have to study as well. :) But it's been working this past couple of years :)

Even if you don't believe in any sort of God, doing something before a test calms you down.

Instead of going all "OMOGOSH, IMMMMA FAIL"

shut the hell up, put your head down, close your eyes and breatheee. :)

The last thing you want is to freak out and fail your math test!

And we all know asians can't fail their math test ;)

....well any test :)

Journals/Blog Posts

Everyone has their way of communicating with God either through praising, praying, reading the bible, talking to other Christians, but I found my way recently.

I never really found reading the bible as my interaction with Christ. I felt as though it was just another school homework. I find writing journals or as I call it "blog posts" to him the best way. I get to talk to him as though I am writing a letter to him, as if he was my friend :)

Dear Jesus:

There is only a month left of school, the most stressful time of the year. This is the time where I slack more on the praying to you or reading the bible. I mean, I barely do it already, so for the next month, I feel like I'm going to get further from you. This time is the time where I shouldd be closer with you. You're the One that helps us get through the hard times, but it's so ironic that so many people tend to lose that relationship with you once the stress comes in.

Wait, even if school is over, it's not even summer for me. I have essel the whole summer. Monday-Thursday 5:30-8-30 Math, and then Friday-Saturday 10:00am - 4:00pm Science. And on top of that I have Volunteeeerrring. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, what do you even want me to be in the future? I don't even know the reason why you put me on this Earth. Can you kindaaa give me the answer soonnn, cause like..........university applications is really really really soon? Thank youuuuuu :)

Oh and this saturday I'm going to say my testimony. I don't really know what to say...maybe the hard times I had when I got bullied at church and I really didn't want to gooo? The time where I stayed in bed crying thinking if I should dieee? (not anymoreee :) ) or the times where I got those dreadful news from my doctor about my spine and kideny? :( I feeel like I'm not going to be able to say half the stuff because my parents are going to be there, and if I spill a lot of stuff, I know I'm going to get yelled and spanked at home. SIGH.

Your daughter,

Christie :)

Science Vs. Religion

For the past couple of weeks, I've been learning about natural selection and evolution in biology. How every living organism came from one common ancestor, blah blah blah. I would be sitting on my chair, just wondering what to believe. God or Science? I guess it's always a touchy subject when we get religion involved. Even when I was little, I would be taught from church, God created everything, water, land, light, darkness, and us. But at the same, I learned about how dinosaurs lived LONG before humans were put on Earth. What do I believe? Everything just contradicts each other. There is evidence to support the scientific theory such as fossils, but what about the words from the bible?

I talked to my dad about this topic and he told me not to believe it. Just to think of Charles Darwin as some maniac that made all these theories. But at the same time, I think natural selection is true, and how some animals evolved. But the fact that we have the same ancestor as gorillas? LAWL.

So what do I believe?

Unfair

How does God choose. Does he pick our names out of a hat. He puts our names into a hat that says cancer, and whoever names come up get it? Does he put our names into a hat labelled car crash, and decide the way we're going to die? How does he create our life for us? He knows what our life is going to be, even before we take our first breathe.

Why are some people smarter than others? More attractive than others? Nicer than others? Why is it that some people are more fortunate than others? Why does he want me to be in this situation right now?

I feel so STUPID

I feel so stupid.

OH MY GOD.

I've been waiting to apply to be an executive for something I really wanted to be.

I REALY REALLY wanted to be one.

I go on my email and get an email from the club stating the new executives.

I started wondering wtf?

so I check my other email, TURNS OUT I DIDN'T READ A PREVIOUS EMAIL ABOUT THE EXECUTIVE AMISSION SHIT.

I'M ACTUALLY SO FRIGGING PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW.

I'm actually so sad....

Mother's Day

What I did for my mommy (:

Food cream + 2 Hand lotions :)

Inside of card:

I wrote at the end: I might not be the best daughter...but I'm better than David. HAHAHAHHAHA (:

Hope you guys have a great day with your MAMMMMMAS (: