I never really found reading the bible as my interaction with Christ. I felt as though it was just another school homework. I find writing journals or as I call it "blog posts" to him the best way. I get to talk to him as though I am writing a letter to him, as if he was my friend :)
Dear Jesus:
There is only a month left of school, the most stressful time of the year. This is the time where I slack more on the praying to you or reading the bible. I mean, I barely do it already, so for the next month, I feel like I'm going to get further from you. This time is the time where I shouldd be closer with you. You're the One that helps us get through the hard times, but it's so ironic that so many people tend to lose that relationship with you once the stress comes in.
Wait, even if school is over, it's not even summer for me. I have essel the whole summer. Monday-Thursday 5:30-8-30 Math, and then Friday-Saturday 10:00am - 4:00pm Science. And on top of that I have Volunteeeerrring. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, what do you even want me to be in the future? I don't even know the reason why you put me on this Earth. Can you kindaaa give me the answer soonnn, cause like..........university applications is really really really soon? Thank youuuuuu :)
Oh and this saturday I'm going to say my testimony. I don't really know what to say...maybe the hard times I had when I got bullied at church and I really didn't want to gooo? The time where I stayed in bed crying thinking if I should dieee? (not anymoreee :) ) or the times where I got those dreadful news from my doctor about my spine and kideny? :( I feeel like I'm not going to be able to say half the stuff because my parents are going to be there, and if I spill a lot of stuff, I know I'm going to get yelled and spanked at home. SIGH.
Your daughter,
Christie :)
Dear Christie,
ReplyDeleteNo I am not Jesus, but simply another student looking to connect with others. I think it's wonderful you have such a devoted relationship with him, I myself am a secular humanist and I blog not to god but to others. It's important to write about our thoughts and our challenges, I often find things easier to understand when I type it out.
School's currently tough for me too. I'm becoming disenchanted with the sciences. My natural talent, and interest lay with the liberal arts. It's a stressful time for me because I would like to apply to Harvard, I have the credentials, but I just need to take the SATS.
I too wonder about my future, where will I be? More importantly what type of person will I become? Hopefully one of kindness and compassion. I have no doubt that you will discover where your interests lie, and if not you can always transfer :).
I hope your testimony goes well :). I'm sorry to hear you were bullied at church. I was bullied as a child to- I think most people in some point of their lives have. My biggest incident of suicide was when I was younger. I actually took out the kitchen knife but luckily I chickened out. It was a tough time for me. I wondered to myself why god, why did I have to go through this? Why am I so lonely? Why can't I belong? I found hope and optimism in my family and the new friends I made in high school. If you interested in hearing my story feel free to add me on skype (frank.john.li) or facebook (Frank John Li)
Cheers,
Frank John LI
ohh, Harvard is so intense!
ReplyDeleteGood luck :)
If it was God's plan to send you to Harvard, you will go :)
If you don't end up going, just think of it as God having a better decision for your future.
:)