Don't Cry

I guess I've been really stressed out these days. Do you ever have that moment where you don't know where you belong? Which friends are really your friends? Who you can trust? What university you want to go to? Why you are the way you are?

Well everyone goes through these phase...but it's so hard. There's so much weight on us. School is not helping at all. Assignments, tests and presentation all are due on one day. Teachers are not the best at teaching. Seriously, it's actually so stressful these days. I have so much homework. Chemistry is the hardest course. The teacher is such a hard marker - getting the lowest mark i've ever gotten in high school. My parents don't know about this. This is what makes it so hard. I hate keeping secrets from my parents. But if i tell them, they are actually going to kill me. They are not going to understand about my teacher. "Oh well are all the other kids doing well? Why not you?"

Other courses are fine, but each have their cons.

And I don't know. Everything just seems a little off. Like I'm not being myself lately. My friend told me that I've been ignoring him at school and stuff, and I feel really bad. I guess with the math tutoring, and essel, my minds been a little off lately. I knew this semester was going to be hard but never this mind stressing. Even if march break is coming, it's not even a break. I have retreat and all these presentations, reading to do.

I just want to go to a corner and cry. :(

ps. Don't Cry - 간종욱 It's a nice song.