My First Crush?

Well I previously told you guys I had a lot in kindergarden but I don't remember their names. In grade 2 though, the first year in Canada, I really liked this guy named Randy. But like all of my other crushes, he liked another girl. It sucked because everyone was saying "OMG RANDY AND _____ LIKE EACH OTHER!" and then you would see me in the corner wishing I was the girl. Eventually I got over it and this is when this cycle kept happening.

Even when I moved schools, it felt like that curse was following me. If I liked someone, they would find another girl to annoy me. I would always wonder, "why not me? What's wrong with me?"

(wow, I sound so gay)

Well a couple of months ago I had bible class with a teacher that was almost turning 40. He wasn't married and when he asked him why he told us that "God will send me the right girl when it was his time." I think that God created every one of us with a partner and our goal is to find him/her in life. Well, that what I think. :)

I want to marry someone that brings out the best in me. I want him to make each other laugh. I want to grow old with my husband! I want to be able to say to him, "We did it. We grew old together!" I want to be like those cute old grandparents that hold each others hands while crossing the road or babysitting our grandchildren while my children are out. Wow, I'm so corny but these are the things I want to do before I die.

What I find really stupid are those girls that get a new boyfriend every 1-2 weeks. What's more surprising is that they say "I love you" to them. They say hate is a strong word but they are throwing the word love around everywhere. I think we're too young to experience what love is. I guess it will be kind of weird when one side says "I love you" and the other side doesn't say anything. :S

Right now, the song Bababa -4minute expresses what I'm feeling right now. Enjoy!